Where to start?????

It's been a bit crazy the last few weeks here in my camp..... Summary: One day I went to the ALS clinic to donate more blood and had a painful lunch experience with my sister. Another day Rodney was running late so I drove my scooter down the road to meet Jocelyns bus. The skies opened up and broke my sturdy umbrella around me, then after she got on the scooter and started driving us home; the friggin' scooter died in the middle of the street. Beautiful! Caught in the rain has brought yet another experience for me. We laughed until Rodney rescued us 10 mintues later and pushed me up the street, up the ramp and into the house.... Poor guy got a good workout that day.
I went to a Strategic Planning session for the ALS Board, and was quite pleased with the results.
I hung out with my friend Jenn, we had lunch and got Manicures and Pedicures. We went to my friend Stacy's graduation party and then yesterday just her and I went to Jocelyns award program at school, then to breakfast then to drink a couple of yummy martini's.....
So I have had some great moments. However, the deal breaker is always the same, what to do with a tortured relationship that I have with my sister.
New information has presented itself, same premise, same ill fated choices, only the names of the others involved have changed over a more than 20 year span. I am at a loss. Salvaging just isn't a priority any more. It simply takes too much energy to have her in my life. The pure truth revealed in a photo. What to do????? What do I want to do????
Not sure yet. I am thinking this one out and have advised her it would be a few days before I could calmly speak with her. WoW!! Tami paused for evaluation before declaring war? What's up with that? It's called evolving my friends. I am really trying here to do the right thing and not f**k the situation up more than it is.
I know that the only person I can change is me. But, can I accept those that do not meet my expectations and readily know they never will? Unconditional, non-judgemental love. Who does this? Parents? Siblings? Spouses? Lovers? The jury is out. Not sure when it will come back and my mouth remains shut until I can answer with conviction.
Some who know me are probably bewildered that I have chosen to think instead of slay with words. I certainly have never been labeled as non-confrontational. The magnitude of this situation is life altering. Scary actually.
Stay tuned.
T