A day in January

I got a call friday afternoon asking if i wanted to Chair the Advocacy Committee on behalf of our ALS chapter.... hell yes!!!! My friend Carmen will be on it with me along with the new E.D. of our Association. Advocacy Day is May 14-16 '07 in Washington D.C. So friends beware, I will be soliciting your time for some volunteerism.
The T.V. finally got fixed and our home movie experiences has resumed. Only problem, I got pretty sick for about 2 weeks the beginning of the month and it weakened me greatly. I can no longer get up the 4 inch drop from my living room to the hallway unassisted. Really sucks! The isolation in my own home has begun.
My independence is truly slipping away. Sometimes I forget that I have this disease because it has progressed so slowly and I really don't remember walking unassisted, or the free feeling of running and dancing. Although in my dreams I am never diseased. Wierd.
I also believe that because I do believe in positive energy, Laws of Attraction, I have been able to stay healthy longer than most with ALS.
My mind since getting diagnosed has become stronger instead of letting the ultimate demise of death permeate my thoughts. Maybe on some level it is denial, I prefer to think I'm just not done learning the lessons I was so obviously put on this earth for.
Any one ready for some good reading???? The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz.
Really makes you think how "words" affect the universe. Recently, I sent out a forwarded email with the message about the Holocast during World War II. to sum up... a little boy asks a elderly man why he kept the number tatooed on his arm, "is it so you can remember he asks?" "no", replied the man so that you will.
Very powerful. too many countries (Iran, Iraq) are trying to convince the world that this massacre did not occur. It did happen, and still haunts those living and families of those lost.
Please don't forget. Ignorance is intolerable!
blessings & Light
T

The New Year begins....

Like I thought I could possibly stay in a transient state forever..... smile. The New Year brings promise of greater rewards, greater achievements, greater everything. Why? I ask this every year. Why does a calendar date mean change should just be instantaneous? I don't make resolutions. I believe if you are in need of altering, you should be in the process of fixing it regardless of the date. Never once have I kept a resolution I made while drinking with friends' celebrating a New Year just before us.

This year I maintain my stance on just trying "To Be." Not involve myself unneccesarily in other's issues and remain calm when my inner self is raging a full out war to fix the universe and everything in it.

I had a great conversation with my close friend Robin the other night..... I laughed so hard, I nearly cried... It felt good. Yesterday, Tana came over and made homemade spaghetti & meatballs, YUM!

Today, Carmen came and took my children to the park, lunch and to a dollar store to spend $5 that a fabulous neighbor named Angela game them each for Christmas.

I was truly blessed to wake up these days. I need to remember that. I have had the pleasure of so many wonderful people in my life over the years. Yes, they have come and gone, but the memories and experiences will forever be cherished.

Today, albeit feeling a bit bruised from choices made so long ago, still feel grateful that I am alive, give thanks to the Supernal and love my children endlessly.......

Tomorrow...... Another chance to give, share and practice how "To Be."

T